Sunday, March 27, 2011

Wild leaves are falling
Falling to the ground
Every leaf a moment
A light upon the crown
That we'll all be wearing
In a time unbound
And wild leaves are falling
Falling to the ground
- Patti Smith

I skimmed through my roommate's book by Patti Smith titled "Just Kids" and discovered another great poet... a little late, but nevertheless.
Life is fabulous. Last week was the best week of my existence. My grandma/second mother bought me a brand new car. A 2008 Dodge Caliber to my name. The vehicle I owned before was literally about to crumble into pieces. It was like driving a loaded bullet, ready to fire at any moment; a moment of sweet death. I'm glad we got rid of it and I'm glad I have someone so special in my life to take care of me and be able to buy me nice things when no one else can. I'm a very lucky girl.

(First and last photo by Katie Ruppel. Other two by Isiac Ramirez)

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

You've always been searching, but never found.
always lost and losing
to distant crowds.

They can't see you nor hear you
they wont even let you speak.
You take your mind off
just to feel nothing.

So I thought of you today
and for how fast you could run,
for how far,
and for how long?

And if it's doing you well; the numbness the same?
then goodbye
to forever (a sad state of mind)
but it's the whole you dug so many times.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Virgo exists in the mind: Everything is inside

Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced.
Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do.
Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown.
They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything.
They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event.
Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.

Everything that boiled down today-every thought that exists in my mind all the time that goes unanswered and clings to my heart like a little worm squirming inside trying to break free-trying to figure it all out, has finally come together after reading these little zodiac facts that are so accurate it scares me to the bones (as it usually does).
My detached soul, and cold self I felt today feels a little warmer, because I know I'm not crazy now. There's more of you out there just like me. So thank goodness, the Anzalone is not actually alone...

Friday, March 4, 2011

Everyday I enter a room with small blue and red chairs
to find myself being stared upon by fourteen curious children.
What on earth are the little monsters going to do, feel, and think today, I wonder.
I try and shove all my worries out the door before stepping inside, but some days
they like to follow me and bite me in the arse.
I take a deep breath, and soak in the chaos before it hits me like a freight train later on.
For the next five hours these fourteen children must be treated as my own.
They know not any better, and everything they see is like a dream.
I can show them right from wrong or shape their fragile minds into whatever I want...if I try hard enough.
But I can't help the little devil inside that's screaming, screaming, screaming;
trying his hardest to break free and run like hell out the blue door.
I guess at the end of the day, I'm nothing more than a mere monstrous kid myself.